The Carpenter's Sons continued...
In my previous blog Birthdays, Basements and Bonfires I introduced you briefly to my friend Justin; his story has unfolded (and is continuing to do so) in such an amazingly beautiful way that it only made sense that I let you step in and personally witness this miracle by letting you take a peek into the mind of a man as God transforms it. With Justin's blessing, I'm going to make his journey a regular part of the Carpenter's Daughter's blog... so take a seat as you watch God make a heroin addict a hero...
In my previous blog Birthdays, Basements and Bonfires I introduced you briefly to my friend Justin; his story has unfolded (and is continuing to do so) in such an amazingly beautiful way that it only made sense that I let you step in and personally witness this miracle by letting you take a peek into the mind of a man as God transforms it. With Justin's blessing, I'm going to make his journey a regular part of the Carpenter's Daughter's blog... so take a seat as you watch God make a heroin addict a hero...
" 'Betrayer! User! Disrespectful! Fool', is all I heard as my lips began to tremble
and my throat quenches shut, as the shower of water beats on my shoulders. In
slow motion I fell to my knees. 'It is time!' I clasp my hands, this is what I
prayed, 'Jesus you are my Lord forgive my terrible sin, please take me in, give
me strength, give me hope. I now choose you over any dope. I’ve hurt
my
Christian family very much. I let them down, no!- no more! It's like I threw them down
like a selfish, evil person would do. This family has been so kind, so
unbelievable to me. They are so strong. They love me. I love them. Give them
hope, give them peace as they push to fight this fight with me. God I love you,
this in Jesus name I pray, Amen.' ”
When we hit rock bottom, we feel like there is no where to turn and we look up, we find Jesus' hand right there, lifting us up. In that moment of desperation when you are drowning, to not look to yourself but to pray for those that you love is a sign of someone who is truly repentant.
Justin wrote the above journal entry, (really his first ever) after making the decision to enter the Teen Challenge program. He told me later that he felt a huge weight come off of him after. That day he packed his little Mazda Miata with everything he would need and left the oppressive, abusive environment he had been living in. He found safety, joy and peace in the loving arms of his mom- a saint of a woman, who's arms had been aching to take care of him for the past 12 years. After Justin's parents divorced when he was 12 the devil saw to it that his relationship with his mom came to a screeching halt while he went to live with his dad. Not knowing how to combat the lies or fight the evil that ripped them apart she just prayed that one day God would restore what they had lost. It may have taken 12 years but God is faithful and has knit mother and son back together stronger than ever.
Before leaving home the day Justin entered the Teen Challenge program he made another journal entry,
"Michelle just texted me and said she couldn't quite describe
the great ways God has worked things through with all of this- so it got me thinking
how I see it:
It’s like many people
in my life participated in building this enormous dam to hold back waters so
deep it created a sea of waves and held memories of darkness deep within...
The power of
what’s happening in my life is as if that dam began to crumble at the
end of October (when we met and I really heard of Christ), but it was built very strong and held it’s ground well longer
than it ever should have. Finally it
cracked, spraying water at an unimaginable 'psi', but still it stood for several
more weeks and then it gave! The water exploded,
its walls ripped away it's foundation and destroyed every block it contained... the sea of my life... turning it
all back into rock, sand, and dirt. The waters were relieved from their sea
monsters; it began to wash away everything that it needed and starts to
flow the natural way God intended it to in the first place as its breathtaking
power of beauty is back."
I love that Justin had this vision just before he entered the program because in a way, mentally, he was washed clean, going in as a fresh slate, an empty vessel as it were, ready to be filled up with nothing but God. Which, after his first week there I was kind of blown away with just how much God did fill him up! At one point he writes, "This
whole thing somewhat doesn't feel real yet because it's as if I feel like
a different person, not just a changed person, literally not the same.
It's powerful and sometimes I feel this emotional excitement that, while it's all wonderful, it kinda chokes me up a little. I'm not sure why exactly yet
but just know it's all good. I'm feeling awesome for a change!"
Lastly, I'd like to share with you Justin's journal entry from his birthday:
Lastly, I'd like to share with you Justin's journal entry from his birthday:
Jan 12 "My Birthday with God"
"Ok, today was great, I had a wonderful surprise (my mom, Leah, Matt and Michelle showed up). I had planned to spend the day with just God, knowing that this was my first birthday since I have found Christ and He has worked- what I would consider- miracles in my life that I can now see like never before. He has opened my eyes for understanding. Early this morning I woke up from this awesome dream (I had been having, not nightmares lately- just dreams of no good) so when I woke up from this I was like "Whoa, that was in-comprehensively AWESOME!" The dream was this: Leah, Matt, Michelle and I were like on some vacation in this mountainous grassland wilderness, just like mountains I've hiked in Alaska. So we did exactly that, we were all hiking through these marvelous mountains, untouched by humans. Then, as we peaked one elevation, something was different- the ground was hard, rock hard! So we stopped and started to realize it was some kind of huge foundation and somehow we knew it was a foundation from a giant pyramid. We couldn't stop thinking, 'how could humans build these that long ago?' It just seemed impossible. As we explored around it we felt the ground begin to quake and the wind whipped up gust. We knew it wasn't normal- something strange was happening- so we decided to take cover. Just then, we saw this dust coming through the valleys, straight for us- the closer it quickly got, the thicker the farthest sighting of the dust became.
It was coming too fast to run from so we held hands and braced for it's impact, still not knowing what on earth was going on. Then it hit us, we felt it's power through the wind, like a tornado. We all ducked and closed our eyes, we were terrified that we would be killed. But as sudden as the wind came, it stopped. I opened my eyes to the unbelievable- we were in a tunnel that seemed to be made of a liquid inside and fire outside.
A perfect tunnel leading up the mountainside- so we followed it. When it lead us out to the blue skies- the tunnel of liquid collapsed. We turned around to see the insanely unexplainable sand storm as it filled the valley below. As it began to rotate the tail end of the storm gathered with the rest and formed an upside down looking tornado. We watched- scared, confused, amazed; as the dust slowed and the vortex faded, it revealed altogether an awe of feeling- emotions, fears and ultimately a vision of a brand new, completely finished, gigantic pyramid! Beautiful! That's when I woke up and realized "realistically" what "imaginably" happened. When we came across that foundation we directed our attention to humans for it's creation because it seemed
so great that people could do unbelievable things. Then, the surrounding land and mountains disappeared from our peripherals and all the awesome credit was going to people who built something that didn't even last, the only part remaining was in the earth. So I realized that God was with us and wanted to teach me a great lesson- it was God that lifted the sand, pushed the wind- He did it straight toward us so that we could feel the power in our chest. I realized that the events were certainly not nature; the tunnel protected us and lead us up to witness this vortex that He used to create a pyramid in minutes. However, when I kept replaying the dream, trying to think- I understood it. I finally realized that the reason God had performed these miracles right in front of us and, in a way, forced us to live and watch, was not focused on the pyramid- that was only an example! It was a "wake-up" saying, "look around you". We were more impressed with a broken foundation of a thing people built- that lasted only a fraction in time. God knew what He was doing, He knew what we would realize... that He is the King of kings and the Creator of the created and to never give direct credit to just people- their pyramids won't last. His mountains will never decay, He is overlooked all too much and when people think they're awesome for what they temporarily built then how would you describe God who is permanently created!
This seems like just another crazy dream but this one was different, I don't remember any other that God was the main character in, so I believe that He did show me the miracles He could do in this dream so that I can see the real ones right before my eyes everyday."
"Ok, today was great, I had a wonderful surprise (my mom, Leah, Matt and Michelle showed up). I had planned to spend the day with just God, knowing that this was my first birthday since I have found Christ and He has worked- what I would consider- miracles in my life that I can now see like never before. He has opened my eyes for understanding. Early this morning I woke up from this awesome dream (I had been having, not nightmares lately- just dreams of no good) so when I woke up from this I was like "Whoa, that was in-comprehensively AWESOME!" The dream was this: Leah, Matt, Michelle and I were like on some vacation in this mountainous grassland wilderness, just like mountains I've hiked in Alaska. So we did exactly that, we were all hiking through these marvelous mountains, untouched by humans. Then, as we peaked one elevation, something was different- the ground was hard, rock hard! So we stopped and started to realize it was some kind of huge foundation and somehow we knew it was a foundation from a giant pyramid. We couldn't stop thinking, 'how could humans build these that long ago?' It just seemed impossible. As we explored around it we felt the ground begin to quake and the wind whipped up gust. We knew it wasn't normal- something strange was happening- so we decided to take cover. Just then, we saw this dust coming through the valleys, straight for us- the closer it quickly got, the thicker the farthest sighting of the dust became.
It was coming too fast to run from so we held hands and braced for it's impact, still not knowing what on earth was going on. Then it hit us, we felt it's power through the wind, like a tornado. We all ducked and closed our eyes, we were terrified that we would be killed. But as sudden as the wind came, it stopped. I opened my eyes to the unbelievable- we were in a tunnel that seemed to be made of a liquid inside and fire outside.
A perfect tunnel leading up the mountainside- so we followed it. When it lead us out to the blue skies- the tunnel of liquid collapsed. We turned around to see the insanely unexplainable sand storm as it filled the valley below. As it began to rotate the tail end of the storm gathered with the rest and formed an upside down looking tornado. We watched- scared, confused, amazed; as the dust slowed and the vortex faded, it revealed altogether an awe of feeling- emotions, fears and ultimately a vision of a brand new, completely finished, gigantic pyramid! Beautiful! That's when I woke up and realized "realistically" what "imaginably" happened. When we came across that foundation we directed our attention to humans for it's creation because it seemed
so great that people could do unbelievable things. Then, the surrounding land and mountains disappeared from our peripherals and all the awesome credit was going to people who built something that didn't even last, the only part remaining was in the earth. So I realized that God was with us and wanted to teach me a great lesson- it was God that lifted the sand, pushed the wind- He did it straight toward us so that we could feel the power in our chest. I realized that the events were certainly not nature; the tunnel protected us and lead us up to witness this vortex that He used to create a pyramid in minutes. However, when I kept replaying the dream, trying to think- I understood it. I finally realized that the reason God had performed these miracles right in front of us and, in a way, forced us to live and watch, was not focused on the pyramid- that was only an example! It was a "wake-up" saying, "look around you". We were more impressed with a broken foundation of a thing people built- that lasted only a fraction in time. God knew what He was doing, He knew what we would realize... that He is the King of kings and the Creator of the created and to never give direct credit to just people- their pyramids won't last. His mountains will never decay, He is overlooked all too much and when people think they're awesome for what they temporarily built then how would you describe God who is permanently created!
This seems like just another crazy dream but this one was different, I don't remember any other that God was the main character in, so I believe that He did show me the miracles He could do in this dream so that I can see the real ones right before my eyes everyday."
When Justin gave his life over to Christ, he said to Him, "fill me up with all You've got." and He is doing just that; watching the miracle of what Jesus is doing in Justin's life is too wonderful to keep to ourselves. Until next time, remember that Jesus is that beautiful light that expels all darkness...
The above photo was taken of Justin with the painting "Calvary" by Stephen Sawyer, www.art4god.com it has literally save Justin's life- and countless others' I'm sure.
Steve posted this on his Facebook page along with the following:
A YOUNG MAN NEEDING SPONSORS
"Justin is a 24 year old guy, who has been secretly battling a severe heroin addiction for the past 5 years.
After accepting Christ in Nov. ’13 he saw the painting "Calvary" posted on a friend’s blog. He was overwhelmed with emotion, he couldn't stop staring at it and felt the Lord speak to him saying, “It’s time”.
He sat his friends down, opening up to them about his past. They got
him "Calvary" for Christmas and it has become one of his most prized
possessions. As a result of that chance glance, he has entered the Teen
Challenge program- in his own words- he wants to come out, “looking like
Jesus, acting like Jesus and talking like Jesus.”
This
painting has literally saved Justin’s life; you can see with the huge
smile on his face he is doing amazing! Justin is in desperate need of
sponsors to help finance his stay in what they call the “Jesus Factory”.
If you are interested, you can send a donation in the name of Justin
Bee to: Teen Challenge Cincinnati, P.O. Box 249, Milford, OH 45150 or
for more information e-mail Masfaith3@aol.com "
Thank all of you for reading this and considering helping someone.
They contacted me, thanked me for my work, and hoped for some
assistance in a very difficult and brave recovery. The photo and
comments in quotations are from them.
Stephen